This is my granddaughter Sophia.  She's actually several months older now than in this picture, but I haven't gotten around to downloading more recent pics.  Sophia is 14 months old now and I wonder where the year has gone!  I feel young to be a grandmother.  My grandmothers always seemed old to me! I suppose they were about 10 years older than me when they became grandmothers.

Being a grandmother is an amazing thing.  I've noticed how often I think of my own grandmothers and how blessed I was to have two such loving and wonderful women who watched over me throughout my life.  I also feel a bit inadequate in that I'm not much like either of my grandmother's in the domestic department.  They could both sew, cook and housekeep like superstars of their generation. How did they manage to cook all the food at once and keep it hot?? It's still a mystery to me...While I admire those things about my grandmothers, I mostly look back and remember what tough women they were.

My paternal grandmother was a very short woman who was always smiling.  She was gentle and soft spoken.  She would get frustrated with my grandfather but would just laugh.  He died at the very young age of 54 and she never remarried.  He was the love of her life and she filled her life after his death with work, her children and us grandchildren.  She made the best cherry pies and always had ice cream for dessert, one little scoop after dinner.  Her kitchen was bright yellow and always smelled of toast and coffee.  I remember her hands were always soft.  After my grandfather died I laid on their bed and cried and cried and she let me listen to a music box she had over and over again.

My maternal grandmother was especially strong.  My grandfather moved her and my mom's family all over the country, from N. Dakota to Wisconsin to California and finally Arkansas.  She had 8 children, three of whom died before her.  She attended church almost every Sunday of her life in the Southern Baptist church which is sort of ironic considering she had no patience for sexism or racism.  She was very intelligent and could beat just about anyone in Scrabble and did the New York Times Crossword every day.  She had a dry wit and loved The Far Side.  She was a little more prickly than my other grandmother but we knew she loved us and she was probably exhausted by the time us grand kids came along!

I have much more to write about my grandmothers but I guess that's enough for now.

I've been fighting a nasty flu bug making the rounds.  It's on of those with chest congestion and a cough and anytime I get up to do anything I break out in a sweat! Ugh!  I'm not sure if it's my imagination but I feel like I've been more sickly in the year since moving to Hawaii, maybe the change in climate...
One of the things I love to do when I'm under the weather is watch old British police shows.  But my absolute favorite is the old A&E series Jeeves and Wooster.  Hugh Laurie and Stephen Frye are so great together!  It's hilarious.  It's hard to believe Laurie is the same actor who plays House, because his Bertie Wooster is such a google eyed idiot...
I'm preaching this week on the Luke text when Jesus asks the disciples what they have to eat.  I suppose broiled fish could be a kind of comfort food...when I'm sick I remember all the delicious casseroles my grandmother used to make to give us when my mom or someone in the family was sick.  She could make even the most basic casserole taste yummy! She used to make the best Spanish Rice casserole.  Of course she didn't have recipes for any of these things and so now most of what she cooked is gone with her.  I would ask her for a recipe and she would invariably say "oh a little of this and that, whatever I have on hand!"  When I try to combine whatever I have on hand it does not turn out tasty and delicious, more like, " it's edible but I won't ever try that again!"
My aunt and uncle are coming next week for a visit and I'm really hoping I feel better.  I'm also hoping I can get a decent sermon together.  That's one thing about ministry, you may not go in to the office or do other weekly work, but unless I've been incapacitated I don't think I've missed more than a couple Sundays in 15 years of ministry due to illness.
I am grateful for work that allows me flexibility.  I can't imagine what it must be like for people who work minimum wage, who don't get sick days, who can't afford to miss more than a day or two of work.  So, even though when I'm sick I like to have my little pity parties about housework and household chores I know I have much to be grateful for and very little to complain about.
I hope my ministry colleagues out there are practicing good self care and health.  What do you turn to for comfort when you're sick?

I need to write in the morning!  By the time I got home from a meeting and choir I was exhausted!  A little bit of choir drama...I go back and forth about singing in the choir, but then I think, I don't need to get drawn into this, it's between the choir director and the choir.  But it's never that simple and clear cut is it?
I got to spend some time with my sweet little granddaughter this afternoon.  I'm amazed at the drive to keep moving forward that I see at work in her.  It seems like she just figured out how to sit up, then pull herself up, and now she acts like she wants to climb!  It made me wonder when I shut that part of myself off?  When do we as adults quit pushing ourselves?  Or maybe some adults don't, which is why you read about an 80 year old running a marathon or skiing.  So I'm thinking I need to learn or try something new, something physical.  I'm more than comfortable reading about new theology or stretching my mind, but not so much with physical stuff.  I need to do it now before the gravitational pull of the couch wins totally.  So, the next question is - what?  I have done some outrigger paddling as a substitute, but can't seem to find a regular, recreational paddling opportunity.  I live in an area that offers lots of outdoor opportunities...maybe I"ll try stand up paddling...

Exploring the faith, religious, spiritual blogosphere

In trying to develop my own habit and ritual of blogging I have been exploring other blogs.  Mostly religious, faith, sprituality based, but not all.  I am finding that there is some wonderful writing out there, and some not so great or compelling stuff.  I decided to jot down some of the things I really enjoy and some of the blog themes and topics I will skip.
I really enjoy:

• Humor.  There are some really creative, clever, and funny ministers out there, and a lot of great blog titles too!
• Thoughtfulness.  As in, posts that reflect some serious thinking.  (unlike my recent rant about my car)hahaha
• Practicality.  As a minister preaching every week I love reading and discussing the lectionary, sharing resources for worship and ministry.
• Inspiration.  I'm a word lover and hoarder.  I will copy and paste quotes all day long.  I love coming across wonderful thoughts and quotes people share.
• Interesting.  People's stories and lives are generally fascinating.  
• Books, books, books.  I love to read and love to know what others are reading and what they think.
• Poetry
• Music

Blogs and/or Posts I'll Skip:

• Blogs about cats, or dogs, or pets. Unless they can talk.
• Blogs in which people refer to themselves in the first person.
• Blogs in which people refer to their significant other with a cute endearment, as in "the beloved and I went on vacation."  "Sparky and I fixed meatloaf." ugh.
• Posts about one's most recent tattoo and its significance.  

What particularly interests or disinterests you in the blogging world?

RevGalPrayerPals: A Place for Prayer: Wednesday Prayer

RevGalPrayerPals: A Place for Prayer: Wednesday Prayer

I saw a blog or tweet about "first world problems" and so I think this goes under that category! haha!
I've heard somewhere, maybe a Hindu principle, that when lots of things are breaking down something good is trying to be born.  Maybe that's way off.  However, I'm hanging onto it since our poor little VW Jetta keeps breaking, literally.  A couple weeks ago a flat tire.  Then the driver's side window button broke.  The AC hasn't worked for a year...now the passenger side window button broke off...I ask myself, can I drive around in a car with no AC and unable to put down either of the front windows?  Living in Hawaii most of the year you can get by without AC, but the summer can be very hot indeed.  Do we keep putting money into the little thing, it runs great.  And most importantly no car payment! 
In my advancing middle age I find myself needing more and more air circulation.  The rear windows can both still be put down, and on the other bright side it prevents me from eating drive through fast food!
I know this is a ridiculous, brainless post, but this is my predicament...I'm not much into "things."  I'm not one who needs the newest and nicest.  But I find myself coveting cars with all the bells and whistles, things like window buttons, radio buttons, AC, a headliner that isn't falling off...Is it worth it to invest a couple thousand into a car that seems to be crumbling but running?

Post Easter Blues and Blahs

I'm feeling so tired after Easter.  I was actually feeling tired before Easter! I'm feeling perilously close to burn out...I have just completed my first year of ministry at a new church.  While beginning a new ministry is exciting, it's also exhausting.  I'm hanging on for a couple more weeks to take a week off when some family come to visit.  Then in June I'm going to the Ghost Ranch in NM for a week long course.  I'm planning on doing some serious reflecting and resting!  I'm trying to pay attention to what I am doing and how I am spending my energy.  My challenge is that even when I recognize I'm getting pulled into the vortex of distractions, i.e. property concerns, bathroom lights, and outside user groups, I don't know quite how to disengage!  I feel like just shouting outside my office: "I just want to minister!"
It's only Tuesday after Easter, so hopefully my patience and fortitude will be renewed mid-week...

Third time's a charm!

I think this is my third time, dipping my toes into the world of blogging.  I love to write, I love words, I enjoy reading other people's blogs.  Maybe part of the challenge for me is consistency.  But I read other minister bloggers, and they process sermon material, spiritual reflections. These are all things I do almost every day and week.  They even do serious exegesis through blogging!  I've joined revgalblogpals - twice I think.  I've tried Wordpress and am now back to Blogger...so enough about past failures, or let's call them false starts.  
I think part of my hang up is  perfectionism.  I want each post to be deep, or funny, or witty, or moving or all of the above!  I have dreams of grandeur...which I can keep safely as dreams if I never blog right?? 
So here's to new starts, re-starts, continuing the journey.